shut yo mouth

OCCUPY MY FACE

2012-01-29T07:52:00.000-08:00

OK January is getting old.
Make some room for the rest of the months why doncha? Can't always be all about January. The other months are just as important if not MORE so.
Def mo. every month after Jan. is in fact BETTER.
I am broke broke broke and thats gonna be my cruel reality until I am not broke anymore.
Dude I have so many piles of dog feces in my backyard its absurd! Therefore today my big plan is to scoop it all up.
SUnday FUnday at its very berry best.
BEAT THAT! I'll take photos.
LAst night I dreamt of some wild dogface/bore in my house. He was a light sleeper so I was tippy toeing around as to not disturb the beasts sleepytime.
The thing reminded me of the scene in the 1987 movie Dragnet when Friday and Streebek disguise themselves and sneak into the secret P.A.G.A.N. ceremony!
that movie should be rereleased in 3D!
my mom has not seen me in almost 4 weeks.
wow.
I say, "FUCK IT MANG! Lets shoot for 4 mos." !
Coffee time for me now.

ireplay

2012-01-16T07:06:00.000-08:00

It is freaking COLD outside right now. I have a lot of pork chops that I wanna turn into a magical dish. And while I am on the topic of magic it needs to be noted RIGHT NOW before I go any further... ready to be BLOWN AWAY? are you ready to freak OUT!?
I now own an iphone!, and whatheck I should be using it right now to BLOG! what am I thinking??!! laptops are so like dinosaurousrex!
but yeah the iphone is a special magical thing and that is my review.
Never even thought it was possible for I.
Then again its ALL possible! with the iphone.
iMagic.
Much the same way I felt about having a drivers license.
I got my DL on 10/31/07, two days before my 18th bday. AND HEY! That was a fun Halloween Party! I could go on and on w details but why?
MAN I am so caught up in the same songs over and over lately! I can't stop! If only I could JUMP INSIDE the song.
not even because I can relate or feel the same way but just cos I love it so wholeheartedly.
for me to know and you to find out one day never.
and pandora! UGH! THANK YOU GOD. iGod?
if i have the time.
RIGHT!? Am I right or am iright?

Kick the NewYear off with a Candy Apple

2011-12-31T23:11:00.001-08:00

here is something I wrote days and days ago...............................

MAYbE this is the last blog post of the yr.
maybe i should make some resolutions here for 2012.
#1. Get a facial at a nice spa at least every other month if not once a month. (SERIOUSLY)
#2. Exercise 3-5 days a week OR MORE
#3. Drink more smoke less (negotiable)
#4. Read books
#5. Drink water the way I used to when I was in shape :(
#6. Get a life insurance plan (the one I've had for the past 10 yrs suddenly expired. such a waste of money. EXCUSE me for not DYING QUICK ENOUGH!)
#7. Get in shape
#8. Figure shit out
REsolutions are boring and pointless. But my list seems reasonable. Nothing to unrealistic. like for example I didn't list #9. Stop being an idiot asshole
Cause that is impossible.
2012 is going to be unlike anything we have ever experienced or could ever IMAGINE! and its going to fly by.

hahaha ridiculous.
..............
NOW at this current moment in time less than a hour left in 2011 i just want the same thing I always want and what we all want for oursleves and for one other;
to be cool, zenlike and calm.
am i right or am i right?
To let go. let go of regret and disappointment.
To love and to not think of the past, EVER. Its gone. But thats not possible. The past has created the now and the now creates the then.
It is possible to play some basketball and not care.

I want to get a lot more tattoos in twenty12. might as well.

Happy 2012.
Here is to being prepared to love and hate it all at once.

forever and ever

2011-12-10T08:53:00.000-08:00

SO much work to be done everywhere.
My car is all shiny and freshly painted. SO now I don't want to drive ANYWHERE ever.
maybe there is some good when your car is junky looking.
A feeling of calm when its already all scratched and messy.
A "WHO CARES" ATTITUDE!
and that my friends IS the attitude we should all be striving for.
I want to want nothing. Ironic!!!
its only 9 am.
MERRY CHRISTMAS. I might go to my Mothers boat and I might not.
TIs the season of dilemmas.

SORRY WORLD

2011-11-30T09:18:00.000-08:00

now i eat my oatmeal plain. no sweetener atall. Started this new thing today. FUCK TASTE. I really dont need it.
I'll still add creamer to my coffee and cont adding FLAX to the oats. Gives it a nutty flavor.
LAtely I feel like such garbage, yikes! is this the last full yr we will have as a semi functional SOCIETY?!
I think I am member of some society.
BUT YEAH as i was sayin',
last full yr ever is now cause in 2012 new shit is going DOWN!
so and I guess it will be yr 1 all over again?
BWHAHAHA CHAcHAHHCHA!!
anyways I am sorta kinda serious but I don't really have any REAL concrete ideas.
btw this oatmeal IS GROSS and its ok cause at least I have oatmeal. Some people have nothing. And I dont want to be an ungrateful bitch.
too many self photos on this blog for my taste but sometimes thats gonna happen cos the other photos I have taken are all too extraordinary for the internet...so there you have my thought on that.
STeam cleaning everything is a new hobby of mine!
Very rewarding to sanitize EVERYTHING ALL OVER.
Should be doing more if that right now because things are always getting filthy.
Disgusting slobs we are.
bye byes.
Time to break it down like I'm in control.

Eat Some Mini Tuna Sandwiches @ Midnight

2011-11-21T13:33:00.000-08:00

Tried steam cleaning the fuck outta my cocina but turns out no matter how hard I steam it I still hate it, bUT it looks a bit better. SOYAY!
Thats called me looking on the BRIGHT SIDE.
AND SPEAKING OF THAT SOmeONE found my blog using the search words "nasty big butt". Really?
Thats AWESOME.
I know I had somethng to say on here but of course by the time I log in I forget.
Thats called me being an idiot.
Got the big Turkey. Hopefully its big enough to satisfy my HUGE APPETITE for leftover TURKEY SANDWICHES!
I need to purchase some brown sugar and fun stuff like that today, cause its time to get cooking and crap like that. I cleaned the kitchen so might as well fuck it all up & get buzzed.
Buzzin all day baking stuff.
Its holiday time.
Where is the magic?

SUNDAY FUNDAY MOFOS

2011-11-13T10:54:00.000-08:00

WHere should I begin and where will it end? Gotta say I'm feeling slightly rushed to look at and enjoy Christmas trees today, yesterday and all the days of our lives and everyday after that. I thought the festival of fucking trees was always AFTER Thanksgiving NOT 3 WEEKS BEFORE HALLOWEEN!!!!!! its too too quick.
EIther I go today or Tuesday maybe or not at all. SATURDAY I CAN"T cause its my sons soccer team party woo hoo. and SUnday they are gonna be taking things down and everythng will be picked over and torn up. UGH. SO its this Sunday and Tuesday MAYBE. Its not even Thanksgiving how can I care about trees???How about FESTIVAL OF PIES first!? Then move onto trees.
So there is that PLUS I need bread, plus the laundry is starting to get a mind of its own and I recently put it in its place so lets not get off track with that relationship.
I have to fit all this in and comb my hair! oh LIFE! YOU BASTARD!
HAd some oatmeal and coffee this morning, WOW SHOCKER I KNOW.
My legs are destroyed because I destroyed them yesterday at the gym!
I was sore before I was sore.
The gym is allll revamped and fancy smancy right now. NEW NEW NEW and its all for ME ME ME!
Ok.
This is really enlightening and fun but I need to go.

Bust a move

2011-11-05T12:49:00.000-07:00

ew.in my opinion I loook FAT in that reflection picture
but yeah that was like a whole entire month ago so i BET I look SO SO SO totally different now. today. matters not really.
THIS Saturday I would like to drink coffee all day and get mad crazy on every piece of clothing I own and organize it. SO i need to find my inner organizational skillz.
whatever. I need to clean.
Clearly thats not happening while sitting here BLOGGING.
I need some discipline.
Lately its been chilly. This morning I was freezing.
In a few hrs I have bday/pizza party to go to.
It is FUNNY because I was invited to one party then UNinvited THEN invited to ANOTHER.
Big shout out to the universe for that save!
BTW If I hear that old friend song by Adele one more time I may shoot myself. and thats me LIKING her and her songs. Its just played OUT. over and over again and again.
what else can I blab about? the gym?
Let me break it down for you fellas
MONDAYS AT 8 AM
WEDNESDAYS from like 9am ish -11am
THEN Fridays @ 9am,
there you have it.
OH yeah now Im 32.
30 and 31 sounded good to me, but 32 sounds boring.
but I am just a sillygoosehead.

What's a-motto with you?

2011-10-17T12:43:00.000-07:00

Trying to lose 30 lbs. Well actually 25 LBS and I am pretty confident that it will happen quickly because of my X-TRA XTREME dedication and seriousness over the matter. Only drinking water and tea. I MAY PERHAPS have wine BUT not yesterday or today.AND MAYBE a diet coke with Tacos.
Today I went to the gym for the 1st time in roughly 3 mos. It was great and I was surprised to think that I actually looked OK. Funny how I may think I look the same sometimes and then my jeans are like "nope".
Thats something I like to obsess over. Of course the people out there say that I look good for only 6 weeks postpartum. They are sweetie pies. hugs and kisses.
UGH Im so sick of myself. Ever been SO sick of yourself that every thought in your mind and even every NON thought that doesn't cross your brain is annoying to YOU.
even this blog post I was in such conflict over. going:Should I post? not post? I'll post. Really should I? do I want to? WHY? SHould I sweep the floors instead? Re paint my nails maybe? NO not now. WHO CARES!I'll quickly sit down and be lame and I'll post.
I need and would like to do more webbing and spookafying on the porch.
Truth BE TOLD I haven't done that much of the spookafying around here.
Other people have and it looks spoooky.
Awhile back I was having reoccurring nightmares involving Halloween arriving and not being prepared or ready AT ALL!!!
SO I don t want that nightmare to come to life.
But no Halloween Partay. Next yr maybe. who knows?
Next yr I'll be turning 33! This yr I am gonna be 32. sounds old but I am still so very young and stupid.
hakuna matata.

look at the PEACE. LOOK AT IT!!!

2011-09-13T10:23:00.000-07:00

Oh my goodness.
There is a new version of blogger! who cares?
You know one thing I have been wanting to do for a long time now is update my flicker account. Like where I have to PAY. Because right now I am not really getting all that flickr has to offer! I must pay.
My Dezi Babydoll arrived.
Labor was fast, intense, and efficient. The universe decided that I had to get it done all by myself.
Which I did so now I can DO ANYTHING!
UNIVERSE SAYS GOOD JOB.
for now. The universe loves to challenge us to the point of DEATH.
SO I said hello to life one Saturday and the very next SaturDAY I had to say goodbye to another.
weird. hello. goodbye.
hi.
Be safe and cautious out there. The galaxy is huge. DOnt Wanna Float into the wrong one.

narrow-minded

2011-08-28T09:14:00.000-07:00

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME! The VMAs are tonight! And I am 1 cm. such a life.
Yesterday I threw together a yard sale and made 30 BUCKS! I have a larger than life TV I'd like to sell and its in my garage. stufoid thing. NO body NOT anybody wanted it.
Had to stand in the desert in 105 degree heat waiting for my sons soccer coach to arrive for PICTURES. HE fucking told us 1 pm but HE didnt show till 1:50. ISnt that the rudest shitbag of a thing? yes Kathryn it is. SOOO let me tell you, he arrived and just walked on by like he is something famous and we all should just follow. WHICH WE DID...then I say where is our banner CAUSE I see that he has NO BANNER in his dirtbag hands. AND HE says with his dickface " whats important? THe KIDS or THE banner?? whats it about? THe kids or the banner?"
WHAT the hell? Anyways, my point was that we all paid for the banner and its PICTURE DAY and every other team is prepared and standing around with their coaches under an umbrella WITH their awesome banners waiting for their photo opportunity.
SO I sorta whisper called him an asshole. NOT too loud BUT he knew.
SOOOOOOooo HE walks his stupid butt over to me and says, " We have to talk about positive attitudes" AND I SAY something like my positive attitude left my body after standing outside in this god forsaken HEAT for 50+ min and where was HE!? andwhere is our banner? AND HE accused me of being JEALOUS.
I had to walk away.
THAT is the basic gist of the scene. give or take.
BOTTOMLINE, asshole.
We have had him as a coach before and looks like not much has change except his arrogance has tripled and so has my waist size.
You should tell me your opinion on this.
my moms new kitty since her old black cat died. Her name is Sabrina.
I would have liked to see her name be MATILDA or Dorthy.
I am gonna go into active labor anyday now.

yellow model chick

2011-07-21T11:03:00.000-07:00

well, friends and family, I indulged in some wine the other night. Like an entire bottle. Not a HUGE JUG or BOX or anything but a bottle. Don't judge me. or do. I DONT GIVE A FUuuuck.
Gonna paint the baby room today, and stuff.
Paint is way over priced. Bottom line.
Last night while on a bike ride I saw a license plate that read "PJLUVDJ".
AFter the bike ride there was an attempt to take a walk around the block BUT 1/4 of the way I thought I was gonna crap my pants! soooo I had to speed walk back home to save myself from using the bathrm in some dark corner of your yard.... SO YOURE WELCOME!
that was exciting.
Baby shower this weekend and I am expecting a lousy turn out cause people are flakeY and have wayyyy better shit to do like stare at each other and go grocery shoppn for eggs and bread and other crucial things like gas up their cars.
Plus I don't know many people.
THe other day I was FORCED to make my oatmeal on the stove and came to the realization that I prefer it that way so thats what I do now.

whisper shit in your ear

2011-07-01T23:54:00.000-07:00

that lost and confused lil hummingbird was trapped in mi casa a few weeks back and it was so EXCITING. I felt blessed by the experience. Was not even bothered that he caused me to be late for my spin class. more like refreshed.watching some Dane COok and he is KILLING ME right now. I've seen this shit like 100xs and its still just as funny. Seeny seen him in real lifey life front row actually. Kept us there till like 3 am! Very intimate setting. REMEMBER?!
He and LOUIS CK are my fav!
comedy is so comforting. An art really.
Major fuck up today. Bought my son a USED "call of duty" game for wii and he no likey and that PISSES me off BECAUSE I should not have bought the crap in the 1st place. SO WHY I ASK WHY DID I DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE? no good reason. ALready purchased an over abundance of fireworks today so what THE fuck ME.
ohwells calm down, it was only a twenty one dollar game including the tax.
who cares in the grand scheme of things? you can't care.
well see ya.

boy oh boy

2011-06-26T13:06:00.000-07:00

Had some necessary dental work done since my last post. Gained some weight too! Haven't smoked the grass since like JANUARY and I am dying! no no I'm cool BUT I really could use a small contact high.
I've had a few glasses of wine and a few gulps of beer spread out here and there. SO FAR I've gained like 40 lbs and thats pretty fucking stupid considering how much I continue to exercise. Only like 71 more days and I'll be sorta back to normal. Smoking blunts and getting drunk. Joking.
Personally I believe that my blood type determines how much weight I gain.
Its all water, boobs and blood and oh yea, baby.
I'm gonna go play some mario kart now and then I'm gonna go outside to tan my enormous body.
love me.

All Soap Operas Can Go Away

2011-05-12T11:41:00.000-07:00

Bitches be crazy. Mostly THIS bitch right HERE. HI! Me.
SO lets just say don't fuck with me. I will cut you. HAHA so cliche.
My neck hurts from all the anger I am carrying inside my head. Heavy shit.
LET GO.
Even when I try to let go IT holds on. People are such assholes.
I guess I am too.
I don't wanna complain.
YEsterday was cool at one point cause there was a Hummingbird IN my house! It was very exciting. Lil bird flying around my upstairs and landing on this and that, looking around all adorable like. Finally the sweet bird found his way out the door. I said "GOODBYE! I love YOU" as it disappeared. Later in the day while sitting in the sun I THINK I saw him again, but two big black birds scared it away. for the best I suppose.
I'm hoping the hummingbird was a good sign and I am sure it is. New beginnings.
Maybe I should nap, and wake up with a new attitude. AN EASY BREAZY ATTITUDE.
SUmmer can start any day now.
love.

are you ready? I think so

2011-05-05T22:24:00.000-07:00

I am pregnant.
22 weeks and 4 days today. Been SUPER over emotional these past 2 days, ANYTHING and I MEAN EVERYTHING makes me cry. Thats the most annoying thing, not being able to get a grip... that and my big butt and thighs BUT its all temporary. AS IS MY TIME IN THIS LIFE. ON THIS PLANET. SO I hear.
Just ate a strawberry shortcake w EXTRA whip cream IN BED.
Last night I dreamt of a HORSE. A rented horse I was using to get around town and it got sick and tired so I had to carry the thing around, and I was nervous that the HORSE would kick me in my face. I felt so sad for the sick horse. WOke up w the feeling that I knew the horse. Took me a minute to fully realize that it was all just a dream. A fucking weird horse dream. NEVER before have a dreamt of a horse.
Today I saw a horse fly. Those things are nasty and mean.
ANyways, I just wanted to blog real quick to document and share.
Life flies by so fast you don't have time to do all the shit you want.
Technical shit. NEW AGE SHIT. passes by without you if you don't pay attention.
Happy cinco de mayo, means nothing to me but I wish it did.

Uneasy Ladybugs

2011-03-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

When it comes to shooting I am a sissy la-la. Fearful that I will somehow, someway lose all control and shoot something or SOMEONE I shouldn't. A GUN is a serious, powerful thing. So I have trouble pulling the trigger, and my trigger finger is weak. A purple gun with an easy trigger is what I need. ANYWAYS I wish I wasn't so chicken.
On to the next subject.
While running some Saturday errands I forgot to pick up TEA BAGS for my gramma and cottage CHEESE for me.
Cottage cheese is the BOMB! Throw in some pears or pineapple and BOOM POW! Color me satisfied.
My gramma and I don't get along too well. Its to the point where I can't even make eye contact with her.
Whats that about? Makes me feel like a failure. SO I am considering seeking some professional help concerning this relationship... I actually have a number of issues that could benefit from professional help BUT this is the one issue I feel comfortable talking to a stranger about. Genuinely thinking about contacting some therapist. To be totally honest I just want my gramma to go away. Admitting that out loud causes me to feel really shitty about that feeling and the thoughts revolving around that. BUT fuck man she is always stirring the SHIT around here, walking around with her walker and oxygen hose, sighing and getting angry when I do anything without her. When you LIVE with your gramma its VERY, VERY different then a weekly, " HI. How are you?" or a, "happy to see you" visit. CAtch my drift? can you understand??? AND when she sneezes she can't just sneeze once or twice she has to sneeze 200 times in a row. I KID YOU NOT.
enough. I've said too much. maybe not enough.
Death is so amusing isn't it. THe way it teases us and the way it sneaks up on us with no warning.
A young mother in my community died suddenly and tragically last week. A mother of 5 young children.
I can't understand it and I guess I am not meant to.
Devastating earthquake yesterday too. Hope this fault never goes off.
BUT HEY Spring is making its way into our lives and thats a positive thing! Time change and all that.
Flowing dresses and flip flops. Budding flowers and trees and baby birds.

just a thought

2011-02-26T21:53:00.000-08:00

Girl Scout cookies come at THE WORST TIME! UGH really little girls w lil bows and ribbon in your hair!??! WHY!? WHY must you sell these little, tiny, calorie, sugary, CARB filled THINGS @ 4 $'s a BOX NO LESS!? stupid bitches to be. SLUTS EVEN.
I was a brownie and I am sure when IIIIIIII sold them THEY were LESS EXPENSIVE AND LESS POISON PACKED! and I BET you got MORE for your buck and LESS lard for your ass.
SO yeah your welcome people of the 80's and NO I never moved up to be a Girl Scout COS I lost interest.
SURPRISE SURPRISE.
BUT no no I rant.
sometimes like a raving lunatic, I can go on and on for hours EVEN DAYS about something or someone.
I ate shitty today. SAturdays have that effect on me. but HA! HA! FUCK YOU SATURDAY SUNDAY IS COMING AND THEN MONDAY!
In your FACE. DICK FUCKER.
I don't know why I am so angry. Maybe the weather? Maybe my mom and your mom and the world has me alllll jumbled and discombobulated. Blaming others for my attitude is what I do best. THAT and eat crap. Its what we as the people do. I believe aliens read my blog from outer space/ far away in another galaxy and then THEY do reports and research papers ON IT.
on us.
But I'll be ok.
I think it would be super dope to get a cool and pretty license plate for my car.
MAybe the one with the PALM TREES so I can REP the beach cause I love you beach and I hate the everything else.

I am the captain and this is my shrine.

2011-02-17T17:01:00.000-08:00

In like 2 hrs I am gonna be in heaven cause I am gonna BE EATING! hip hip yay for food, and sleep.
BLTA croissant sandwich is the the plan and NO FRIES. I WILL NOT HAVE FRIES. Fruit instead. I think. BUT I change my mind a lot. ANd fries are delicious and yeah.
SORRY I have decision making trouble. I am pretty sure I am just a human, with all the same doubts and agitation.
HUMAN BEING here.
Rotten bananas are in my kitchen and I really don't want to waste them so I better A) FREEZE THEM or B) make something with them.
Banana cupcakes? bread? more food deliberating happening. I promise thats ALL I think about. Food and love. Love and food. Normal human clutter.
I even delight in studying menus online. SOME have to be downloaded and I find that MOST ANNOYING. Its natural. my porn.
Being a food critic would be so AWESOME. Everyone can agree with that.
OKAY BESIDES my NEXT meal I am also looking forward to watching JERSEY SHORE tonight, BEST REALITY SHOW EVER.
I love Pauly D. who doesn't?
Justin Bieber is another celebrity I LOVE. Its natural. Saw his movie and IT WAS GOOD. Cried a lot through it. I am emotional. I am person who feels things DEEPLY. A deeply feeling person. Remember in the movie Beaches when Bette Midler says that in her interview??? That was funny and I am trying to be funny now. Not so sure it always comes across the way I want so I find myself explaining in more detail but then that even is WRONG. WHY bother???
watch this awesome video. FUCKING AWESOME MOVIE, seen it like 500 x's and I AM NOT KIDDING.

PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT NOBODY CARES

2011-01-28T13:28:00.000-08:00

Kathryn ate wayyy too much cherry coca cola w LUNCH and is about to EXPLODE all over the place.
What A MESSSS I have become and am continuing to become and will always be.
BUT YEAH I'd like to take a brief moment here on this blog and announce that some people need to STOP thinking that the world cares.
WE DO NOT CARE about your boring crap LIKE Your bills, your paperwork, your ass or your cousins cousin from Wichita or Maine. Where the fuck ever. I dont even pay attn ALL I do know is that you annoy me.
Unless you are traveling abroad to NEW, fascinating and exotic places you need to get off your high horse.
6 am this morning I came to realize the FACT that I had NO more white bread and everything went sour from there.
WEll, 11 oclock am till about noon 30 was ok but THAT has passed and NOW IS NOW and NOW is this.
This is just for fun.

Monster of the Milky Way

2011-01-11T15:11:00.000-08:00

I am blogging even though I am thinking NO, dont bother, FORGET it and who cares.
There is an infection that is leading up to my brain and down to my heart and throat and I may die!
I would never kid about something so cereal. Hopefully I can fix the probably before my funeral.
The weather is chilly to the bone and so am I.
I have been eating the egg in a holes all yr. I'd guess I've had 11. one everyday. maybe less. maybe.
less I m sure but they're good. 1st thing I ever prepared on my own besides a bowl of Trix.
Trix was always my cereal of choice in my youth.
Since this is a LOG of my life I should document that I have a really hard time sleeping.
This is what happens: I fall asleep around midnight and wake up at 2:30 am EVERYDAY! EVERYDAY! EVERY FUCKING DAY. 2:30. IF IF IF I am lucky I sleep till 3 am! THREE FUCKING O CLOCK IN THE MORNING, and I m restless. I don't know what to do w/myself. Where do I place my hands? my feet? my head? my everything. Where do I go? Should I walk around? WOULD that help? go outside? breath? WHAT DO I DO? nothing.
Laundry? nO. It's misery not knowing what to do with ones self. Like I want to get out of this body. JUMP OUT. restless. UGH. its tiring and yet not. First I blamed the mattress. Is it the mattress? Maybe the infection heading towards my brain and heart. That makes a little sense.
Not much sense.

Camera Phone

2010-12-11T09:44:00.000-08:00

Can you believe the quantity of shit that people post as their facebook status?
Its pretty exhausting, to read and try to understand especially when the faces can't spell.
Is it cute to be dumb? Sometimes YES and sometimes no BUt its always cute to spell simple words correctly. I am not trying to say that I am super smart or anything close BUT I am not a total moron.
Oh and guess wha!t not one of us cares about your long winded boriinnng status.
We only care what you think about our short and sweet status.
I am the exception of course cause I really don't give a care what anyone thinks ever. ha.
This Weekend is awesome and I already treasure it.
'BOUT to go to a YOGA class in LANCASTER. Did it last week and it was challenging so this week should be good. THEN HWO HKNOS WHAT IWLL HAPPNE! sorry i am excited about LIFE!
Thanks for reading, thanks for browsing.
Thank YOU for thinking of me.

your number

2010-12-05T21:25:00.001-08:00

It is December and I am not fucking around anymore people.
But blogging isnt as EASY as it used to be. or fun. everything is different. even the comments and codes and junk. I dont ever even look at any blog ever, and if I do I am all buzzed up and half asleep and bored. desperate maybe?

so hi there.
BUT This is what it is and how it be.
Lots of eggnog and white wine,
NOT mixed 2gether BUT NOW that YOU bring it UP that sounds like a fuckin good idea. YOu are so smart and full of genius.
I dont know.
I feel like venting. screaming and laughing.
I am happy.
My gramma is on oxygen and its a bother,
she should be getting home any minute now and hopefully a breaker wont burst or flip a switch.
Breakers are all sensitive and crap.
Soooo its all CHRISSSTTYmasy around our homes and the hoes are baking breads and quiches and shitzznit.
but remember I dont KNOW. anything.
I dont take my gramma to church and I am having some GUILT issues concerning that AREA of my life. ugh life. YOU know all its tricks and pranks. unbelievable the amount of bullshit that accumulates throughout a lifetime. what a book we could all write.
God is amazed I'm sure.
My phone is alll jammed UP with a million things thAT ARE useless and I am trying to fix that.
"Discard the bullshit", THATS the name of my movie.
YOUR MOVIE evenSHIT! YES! and YOURE WELCOME.
been making some crafts with my mom and thats cool and jolly with good ole santa claus stuff.
SAnta is all of us.
You are Santa.

its supper time...

2010-11-27T16:13:00.000-08:00

All I really wanna say outloud is thank you Jesus for netflix,on Wii ! Really. Amazing stuff.

Lets blast forward to the here and now !

2010-11-05T22:03:00.000-07:00

I tasted the rainbow tonight. An ENTIRE bag of Rainbow and now I feel all sugared up and noodle craving.
I just wanna go to bed, wake up tomorrow morning, cook up and eat my oatmeal, take a walk, go to a soccer game, drive to SUPER TARGET, pick up my tea and THEN head over to COSTCO to buy a fancy adding machine.
I have never before purchased an adding machine so I am looking forward to that.
Buying anything is great fun to me.
HELL! EVEN toilet paper and tampons are fun to buy.
Send me to the store for anything.
Need some type of colon cleanse, douche or ointment that you're too shy to buy?
I'll be happy to go.
what type of ladies douche anyways? sickos.
Back to tomorrow :
I should also get a pumpkin pie.
NOW we know whats going down.
So hi,
I had a SUCKY Halloween party and turned 31.
Visited the DEPT of MOTOR VEHICLES to renew my license and have my picture taken!!!
Dreaded the whole thing for way too long for no good reason at all. The experience was pleasant and painless THANKS to my good attitude and appt setting skills...
a friend suggested the appt so having some friends is helpful.
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IT! Probably in like 4-6 weeks.
Heres to hoping that it is as nice as my last DMV photo.
CHanged up my description a teeny bit too.
CHange is unavoidable.
The insane November heat is keeping us from enjoying my new birthday jacket but even that'll change eventually.
Right?

wtf

2010-10-02T09:45:00.001-07:00

HELLO!

I Took Note of The HARVEST MOON Too.

2010-09-26T00:41:00.000-07:00

BLah blah Blah I am bored. Luckily nobody visits this pathetic blog anymore, so its just you and me now.
Been looking at all sorts of images tonight.
ARTSY stuff for my BACK not because I totallly wanna be awesome and cool w ink to prove who I am as an individual but because the butterfly on my back is not going anywhere and NEEDS some LIFE..
something simple but celestial.
Stay away from the cliche.

anyways, maybe I have been overly punchy, and I am sorry but shit man life can really get heavy YO.
and sometimes the bi polar creeps in.
just kidding.
excuses can be overused can't they.
THE other day some older lady school employee? teacher? I guess who cares. Basically some bitch who takes her job all serious told me not to ride my bike in the school parking lot and I told her that I was going to cont to do so and everyone ELSE will just have to deal with it and watch the fuck out for me and TOO BAD. She was SHOCKED and said oh hoho that It wasn't too bad for her.
So then I was like "yeah exactly so mind your fucking business".
what a moron.
Nobody tells me where I can or can not ride my bicycle.
Been doing it since August and nobody has said jack fucking shit and now all of a sudden she created a rule.
No.
If its so damn important post a sign. and MAYBE I will consider it.

Anyway,
happy last week of this month we call SEPTEMBER.
Personally I greet October and every month hereafter with open arms.

less is more.

2010-08-28T12:30:00.000-07:00

SOmetimes I am don't even feel like filling up my water bottle with ICE. takes so long stnading there filling and refilling. its a process.
None of my clothes are fitting loose right now. I guess it happened when I was partying it up all summer and eating cereal at 2 and or 4 in the morn.
GOD I am dumb. One of the dumbest.
Thats what happens when YOu feel all SKINNy and good about yourself. let your guard down and start being silly.
THEN the fat happens. The baggy and saggy. UGH, this is gross.
BUT its only gonna get better.
I lost my thought. I am going out to a store now to buy some STuff THAT I NEED and STuff. I am always goign to a BIRTHDAY PArty And I will probably eat SHIT. THERE taHSTA WILLL MAKE MMEE FEEEL FAT. what should I do? HAve my mouth wired shut?
REMEmber that one real world where TAMMy did that. I was like WHAT did tHAT crazy bitch DO!?
but now I get it.
I get all of it.
Willpower is all I really need.
The fair is happening so I hope most of the town is busy with that and not busy with TARGet or any of the road I gotta travel on.
time is slipping away,
.

summers not over till the fat lady sings...

2010-08-21T16:38:00.000-07:00

today I was like NO way i am getting up and doing any of the things I should
i am sleepy dont wanna and grumpy
then I was realized I was going to RUIN everyones day so I decided to turn on the FUN
and the pool heater, CLEAN my house and then SWIm & Tan!!
Then I guess BLOG.
Later I am planning a shopping adventure where I BUY fiber and maybe eggs and BACON or bagels.
stuff like that.
I reported to faceboook that I crashed my bike but now I will tell the internet more HERE and NOW. yay.
I fell in front of my house in front of numerous passing cars.
On my ass on the extremely blistering HOT concrete my bike all tangled up with me
scraped the top of my ankle
so i have proof and a good way to remember what happened.
and I will take a picture later.
It was funny. I m glad it happened.
I love falling down and scraping myself up.
Truthfully it doesn't happen enough!
Anyways, if i had to say what really blows about today it is the wind.
Wind makes my day less enjoyable.
if there was no wind it would be a hell of a lot different around here I'LL TELL YOU THAT!
Things would be calm and less ADD would happen too.
everyone has attention issues.
I pretty much forgot the point of blogging.

broken system

2010-08-03T13:18:00.000-07:00

school is back in just a few moons. Mixed feelings. Always. Structure is a good thing and that's one thing we can count on. I guess.
I am sleepy.
Yesterday I went to visit and try on a pair of very expensive purple versace sunglasses w/ small silver bows on the side and well someone I guess bought them and they were
gone. What a relief.

the winds have changed

2010-07-30T17:50:00.000-07:00

Out of control!
FIRE! and smoke and wind.
Fucking wind blowing the fire and blowing the water everywhere but on the fire.
I washed off my porch. for nothing. well, a smoothie did tip over.
Nice way to close out the summer.
way to go WIND and FIRE.
Trying to find a movie to watch right now because we cant go outside and I am not in a board game mood.
Always in the mood for KILL BILL but thats not very appropriate for a 7 yr old.
well 8 almost.
next week will be a good week.
hopefully the fire is out by then.
I kinda have a headache and maybe bad breath.
I am gonna have cantaloupe slices as a side dish for dinner tonight.
IT'D be really cool if I grew my own fruits and veggies and even had a chicken and a dairy cow.
This is just a boring afternoon and I am wasting time and nobody looks at this blog.

finally figured it out

2010-07-26T13:50:00.000-07:00

oh god I am a heffer. Sara and me walking out of the buffet. So fat.right now. And now I blog from my phone as of today... starting now. Happy ? About to eat a turkey burger. All I do is eat. It's a good time. And watch a music movie about your fav band. The real deal w sauce.

hi,bye.

2010-06-18T11:42:00.000-07:00

OK OK ITS SUMMER NOW. well not really, cause Sunday is actually the 1st day of summer.
BUt I have HEAT RASH. Yesterday I stayed out of the sun so it looks a litle better but still HORRIBLE.
Old age will play tricks on you and exfoliating toooo much is bad news as well.
moderation moderation.
I am an idiot. What can I say?
Lakers won and that was AMAZING.
I saw it coming all along this yr. POSITIVE thoughts,
BUt I have to go, I just felt real sad for this blog for a minute and a minutes all I got.

are we still there?

2010-05-26T06:41:00.000-07:00

Being a better blogger this summer is something I plan on.
I am planning on being amazing all around this place and your place.
But yeah the right side of my face is swollen and in pain.
I need some dental assistance. free dental assistance would work best for me.
WHY would it be swollen anyways? what is happening? scary to think of the possibilities.
anyways I think I slept good.
I woke up and here I am.

Really

2010-04-18T23:03:00.000-07:00

I am awaiting a check written out to mi in the amount of 8 dollars and some change. woot woot.
thank you google adsense and thanks to you ALL.
8 $'s!
so maybe marijuana is gonna be legal soon in Cali YO.
can u even imagine....
HOW EXPENSIVE its going to be?
california could be loaded! rolling in it.
but no I am not even interested in all that.
not even caring about that subject.
I do care about my pool getting cleaned and fixed in the near future.
something is wrong with the pump and I don't even understand what or how.
no big deal.
my zen like attitude forces me to "let it be"
and to believe everything will happen when it happens and its all happening NOW.
i am serious.
here's to it!

relationships are weird

2010-04-01T20:32:00.000-07:00

HEY HEY HEY! HAPPY APRIL FOOLS fools.
I was gonna use the internet right now to SHOP.
BUY BUY BUY COLLECT COLLECT.
especially when well... NEVERMIND!
Oh how I enjoy buying HAIR products and make up online.
Currently I am wanting some NEW shoes.
SOME VANS.
maybe this weekend, and when I say "maybe" I MEAN THIS WEEKEND!
I will NOT order them online. thats too god damn slow.
I NEED INSTANT GRATIFICATION.
I do have some cool yellow sneakers but I want MAGENTA ones.
never satisfied. I am so unenlightened. sucks.
YOU SUCK TOO.
april fools.
and also I want a hamburger soon. with cheese.
and bacon and MAYBE more.

corned beef and cabbage

2010-03-17T22:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY ST PATTYS DAY stranger.
my blog is not wearing green is it? I am sure there is some green somewhere on this bitch.
yeah you cant pinch a blog anyways.
slept in a green tank top last night so I would not get caught by a sneaky early riser leprechaun.
Unnecessary because I was already wearing green nail polish so I was safe.
and tonight I am safe too.
my eye is irritated and i have a horrible taste in my mouth but I will still do this even though i could be brushing my teeth
Against my better judgement,
I too check this blog for some reason and I am SO SICK of seeing the same nothing.
this will do for another month or so.
just kidding.
only had one glass of wine tonight and the allergies are acting up and thats fine because I can handle a little springtime sniffle if it means the weather is beach trip worthy.
TOok a walkrun today with my dogs and they could not keep up.
Oh yeah I also rode a razor scooter and the dogs had an even harder time with that pace.
maybe they were embarrassed, I was kind of embarrassed for myself. I was flying down this HILL! woo wee!
you should have seen!
see you next time.

other peoples blogs.

2010-02-18T20:45:00.000-08:00

I wore minnie mouse ears while cleaning my moms house for money.
That was fun and I need to do that again.
CLeaning other peoples homes can be FUN.
cleaning is just FUN and relaxing isn't it?
moving around with a purpose is generally nice.
PLUS! I have been keeping my car all nice and clean smelling.
Even bought some of those amazing yellow vanillaroma trees.
changed my life.
Being so responsible.
walking the dogs and checking the mail.

nothing on you

2010-02-12T11:28:00.000-08:00

LET me tell you why 7$ glitter nail polish with stars mixed in is a BAD idea and WHY you should never ever buy 7$ glitter nail polish with stars mixed in it
all that will happen is THIS:
-THE stars will fall off and EVEN get caught on fabrics and MAYBE scratch your face
-the stars won't come out of the bottle easily OR brush on your nail easily
-you will hate the way your nails look
-you will loathe yourself

Made plans to deep clean the inside of my car but looks like I am sidetracked.
I hate my hair and I am thinking about bangin it up. ya know!
I am not sure if I should.
Something PROFESSIONALLY should be done.
why I am so afraid of bangs?
I wish more cool people with like kind hearts read my blog more often and commented nice messages saying they would love to send me FREE gifts and samples.
thats not happening much.
big shocker.
sorry I want things.

I am going
going
gone.

hold on.

2010-02-09T11:06:00.000-08:00

so sick of myself today.
maybe I feeel lonely, and thats so annoying.
always longing for that unreachable something.
oh come now
there there
no no
today is just one of those odd ball days
but really everything is GREAT and WOW!
I am sick
so thats the reason and thats my excuse.
and MY gramma lives with me.
we have things to do today.
yes
why oh why?
but DAyquil really helps.
and the pants I am wearing ARE way too thin to wear out today.
its FREEZING in here!
some crazyyyy asss stormy weather is coming.
lets look forward to that.

maybe I have been paranoid.

2010-02-06T09:59:00.000-08:00

Here I am letting the sun shine its hard sunshine onto moi face.
Light is fun , complicated and sometimes horrifying.
and my part looks not good.
Saturdays have a new meaning these days.
Everyday has a new meaning.
waking up and falling asleep
waking up and falling asleep
over and over
on and on.
Forever and ever.
or just till we die to never awake again and turn into dust. hahaha
no everyday is different and short and long and dumb and smart and funny and not and dull and exciting.
but what I am REALLY trying to say is that I need need need a NEW phone.
SO tired and sick of the one I currently having to live with but I won't fret.
Going with the flow is the most important thing to remember throughout the day.
CHildren have a VERY difficult time wrapping their brains around this type of concept.
most adults too I guess are a work in progress.
But anyways FUCK DUDE! you might THROW UP if you had any idea or imagery of the extreme amounts of sugar cookie dough and sugar actual cookie I consumed yesterday.
no self control.

conversation worth having when bored

2010-01-26T00:12:00.000-08:00

When my horoscope urges that I should ask other people for money I do.
Inspirational.
You too should let the stars inspire.
My fingernails always grow so very nice, long and strong so when one breaks it can turn into a real problem.
You wouldn't understand and as usual I don't feel like explaining.
i guess i use my nails to type
making this typing thing challenging.
nails are kinda gross. and hair?
no?
and teeth.
can one over brush their teeth? never
or drink too much tea? yes
and does green tea give you bad breath?
i really don't believe so.
anyone know how to siphon gas?
I do know how
I just wanna know if YOU know how...
and like magic some new comment programmy thingy appeared out of no where.
like poof.
anyone have anything to say about any of this?
'

its spring soon.

2010-01-22T11:08:00.000-08:00

THAT orange blueberry bread i baked last weekend turned out nice.
i gave it away as a gift so I have been wanting to make one for my own home and when I did, i made it minus the blueberries and evidently minus the success.
tasted good but it was all stupid and stuck to the pan like an ass.
should have taken it out at the 45.
it happens.
this weekend I will bake more.
the rain is coming and going more so going and its a beautiful refreshing day outside.

bi polar.

2010-01-19T11:18:00.000-08:00

no Laker game today so the party I had planned inside my head for tonight is cancelled.
hate that so much.
wasn't really feeling the taco thing tonights so I am going with meatballs and speg.
Todays weather is rainy than sunny and rainy then sunny then rainy then sunny with a rainbow?

this blog is stupid anyways

2010-01-15T15:58:00.000-08:00

Obviously obvious that was summertime because I am wearing a bathing suit under that bathing suit cover.
and I think I am thinner today.
Oh summer where are you? why cant I find you? see you soon?
SUmmer will not/can't answer me here on this blog becausenow for some reason comments cost money!
comments are messed up.
its just silly and unnecessary.
I struggle to even remember when haloscan first came into my blogs life.
so goodbye haloscan. you never did anything for me.
and maybe i never even liked you.

my dogs have been really enjoying the daily walks.
Here in my neighborhood the weather has been really comfortable.
I am so lucky.
WE are so lucky.

one month till Valentines Day! fun.

change

2010-01-03T22:26:00.000-08:00

this hotel is cozy and nice but I feel like shit.
the left side of my brain hurts when I move or think.
stress? allergies? lack of the weed? who knows? who cares?
Lord of the Rings is on TNT right now.
Around dinnertime at the sushi boat buffet I saw a girl wearing the dumbest outfit! i should have taken a photo.
Like some sort of stupid fluffy purple prairie dress and her hair was in braids with some ugly bows.
She loooked like an idiot and made me all MAD!
maybe she was involved in a play but I doubt it.
she chose that outfit on purpose to make me upset.
The dress even had LACE on it. lace. really?! LACE!
and oh yeah don't let me forget the pantaloons.
freakin pantaloons with freaking knee highs and freakin lace.
also! this hotel has a juice BAR!
Goodnight, tomorrow is going to be a long one.

20ten is the end.

2010-01-03T08:59:00.000-08:00

I am in NORTHERN CA! and it is foggy and wet. wow! IMAGINE THAT!
and now I am going to a thing.

wut up

2009-12-26T10:10:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! wait that was yesterday.
and wasn't it fantasicK!? The candied yams did get left in the oven but candied yams are so Thanksgiving and hardly even xmas.
for some reason around 3 AM I tried them out and they were great.
i am a lucky girl. blessed maybe.
But I need to clean up now. where is that MAID!?
one thing a white bearded man told me this Christmas is that I should wear my bra less often because its healthier for my boobs.
NO oatmeal for me today since I had those candied yams.
so many great things.

super fantastic stuff for you

2009-12-08T15:35:00.000-08:00

that colorful and fun thing in my hand is A NERD ROPE!
Santa is gonna put a bunch of them in my stocking cause I am a good girl and I get what I want!
I will do it myself.
First I will paint my fingernails.
RED CARPET RED!
I am having Happy Holidays.
I wish I took more pictures.

just you and me and the others.

2009-11-30T12:57:00.000-08:00

i just now remembered another DUMB thing someone asked me in the recent hours.
it was about my email address. I don't wanna share, jUST forget it.
it has to do with the 95 portion of the address. she asked if it was the year I was BORN!?
WHAT>! she mustve meant the YEAR I graduated? and the answer would still be no.
but I am confused. I am the one with the brain functioning problem. not the rest of the universe.
Not even sure why I brought that up right now.
the nice confused lady I speak of is maybe gonna help me get a job but apparently she thinks I am 14.
I come across as 14? maybe she is really silly stupid with math and years and maybe she was high.
we wont talk about it anymore. Its fine.
I am tired and have a toothache. its hysterical.
TOothaches make me feel close to my father. HOW weird is THAT?
I wont even begin to think about WHY and do alll that psychological problem solving.
MY tooth was being a dumbass a month or so ago and I got it handled like a good person who loved their mouth would do.
SO I THOUGHT
but since like Thanksgiving day something happened.
too much eating of goodness? how could it be happening again? all over again?
this post is filled with questions and riddles for us to solve. do YOu look close?
NO. not many visitors at this blog.
and dont confuse that with complaining.
back when my hits were up to 70 or so it was like too much commotion.
its better like this.
This has helped.
now its time for me to help.
Help my kitchen sink feel better.

every bubble bursts

2009-11-27T09:53:00.000-08:00

This photo is not one I enjoy sharing but I am in a bubble and therefore I share.
The angle is all wrong so I don't like it and my mouth looks enormous but I am in a bubble so its hard not to smile hard.
plus Santa was watching me close that day.
That step thing I was standing on was VERY slippery. one wrong move and i could have lost it.
the crowd of people would have loved that.
I wont sit here and continue to nitpick.
Thanksgiving 2009 was a success.
some of the items enjoyed:
20 lbs Turkey
Mashed Potatoes
Potatoes au Gratin w/ BACON!
cornbread stuffing
green bean casso
candied yams
whole berry cranberry sauce
deviled eggs
apple pie
pumpkin cookies
other stuff
made the entire dinner myself.
OUr lights are up and our Christmas tree has been trimmed. or what have you.
Gramma believes it to be too early. Why? I don't know.
On a sad note I have been a tinsy bit sick.
nothing to really hold me down.
but then again nothing usually does.
showertime now and then its on to the leftovers.

PLEASURE CRUISE

2009-11-18T12:16:00.000-08:00

I hate signing in.
Waste of time, and fuck that.
BUT yes I still signed on and in.
what was I gonna say?
oh uh ROASTED CHICKEN FOR DINNER! and an award ceremony going on.
I would rather go to IHOP but I will keep that trip in my pocket for another lifetime.
good times.
oh yeah THE other night I told a strange lady I could no longer allow myself to be tortured by her long winded refinancing story and house foreclosure paperwork stress-talk ANY fuCking more,
and she did not even GET it, she laughed and went something like this: AHahahahahahaa mmmhmm yeah I know I am totally annoying and up in your face but i really like you and want you to hear this information.
can you believe that?!
WEll sorry,
that is a very inaccurate version of the truth but you get the point and you understand and MAYBE just fucking mayBe you have heard this story already or have been somewhere and seen the scene and you know about it.
Everyone else at the table was just going to sit there and LET it happen.
LET this annoying hag go on and fucking on about her stupid and pathetic story. it sucked. I hit my limit of being polite with her. she was feeding off it. I could tell it was getting her all revved up for more of my listening, and no. Not happening,
I dont feel that I should OR YOU should be forced to listen to bullshit from people who don't matter for over 5 minutes.
3-5min is acceptable.
If you matter to me then SURE by all means bring to me your sad sad long boring shit of a story.
I will listen. I will be your good friend
but if you suck and I dont like you please just sit there and listen to what I have to say.
I am amazing and my story is incredible.

the respect I made you earn

2009-11-16T13:44:00.000-08:00

i have been searching for things. this certain hair glaze stuff for my lovely shade of red to stay VIBRANT and new BUT of course you know I cant find it. I found brown and blonde and clear but no red. thats WEIRD!
so whatelse? went to target with SARA and I found some really great sleeppy and sweep the house pants BUT ALAS they were 10 bones so GUESS WHAT KIDS? yep I hid them in a gift bag in the gift wrapping lane
I am confident that they will remain there FOR months and months until the ONE day I will be able to rush in there and BUY THEM! WOOO HE! no. I will forget. who even cares about awesome pants? I have so many already.
this post is SO USELESS! except the picture above is cute and fun and I am sure I was saying something very very funny. YOu can tell this is a FACT by the way Ree is leaning away from me.
I was really treated like shit by a waitress that day.
it was the day after my birthday that now feel like ten thousand years ago.
TIME IS FLying by! AHHh merry christmas!
no no
it s not.

full of knots.

2009-11-08T20:19:00.000-08:00

All the weirdo neighborhood kiddies end up in my yard.
TO be honest I dont really know how to deal wth these children and so therefore I wish they would go play and yell and be dumb else where or be normal.
Really that is asking a lot and I guess I would rather have them here instead of in their sad, boring, lifeless, fucked up, dirty homes. I dont know if that is true but I imagine.
My home is still kinda A mess with left over HALLLOWEEN decor here and there scattered about. so I should be ashamed.
but its fine ok dont worry
I will have it done so soon, you will be like WHERze DIDz tHATZ shitz goez?!
I will be like YEAH and yep.
put away,
in bins. YO
fools.
I just waannna be at the gym tomorrow feeling good, looking around and thinkin about the days of our lives.
Is that soap stiill on?
We have some xmas tree shaped brownie cakes up in this joint and I am LIKE huh? serious?
I need to fill my glass up.
I have no money.

thought it was a plus but it was a minus

2009-11-03T15:24:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a full moon, my b-day and a total full-scale karmic experience.
what can be done to stop it?
Very noticeable and very natural.
So much more going on with everything and everyone
too complicated and dumb for my head or yours to fathom or work out.
but yeah what the hell? thanks?
But hey you can rest better knowing that my halloween party decorations are obviously way better than any your friends placed on their chandeliers and hallways.
maybe decorations aren't everything.
Stupid me misplaced my camera so I did not take as many pics as i wish.
too busy running around getting in trouble and looking silly I guess.
whatever next year i will be better prepared or I wont give a damn.
Of course next year will be different for all of us in many ways just as this year was different than last blahblah what HAVE you.

spooky

2009-10-30T21:42:00.000-07:00

Halloween time is in your face.
my birthday is soon and I will be 30.
i meant to get to the store for some fucking green TEA today BUT did i go??
the answer is no. too bad.
in the morning i will hurry up and go grab what I need, it'll be fun.
ooooo yay! i have some pumpkin pancake mix!
that HAS to be made in the morning, such a good thing i just reminded myself cause I hate when I forget those tiny details.
i need a few other things from the store too like a red onion, orange icing, little tiny cups, some peach schnapps and other items.
ok i might go after 11:30.
Everyone should sleep till at least eight thirty or nine on
Saturdays.

SEE THROUGH YOUR HEAD

2009-10-22T14:22:00.000-07:00

ok. concentrate. focus and breath.
my gramma is messing with her hearing aid and its whistling loudly.
being old is juts not cool dude. dont let it happen to you.
and dont cheat on tests.
life is full of tests. such crap.
ANYWAYS I did kick boxing today for the 1st in awhile because of reasons I cant control and thats not FAIR!
but what was the point?. OH YES FUN! it was HELLA KICK ASS FUN today in that class and I felt great.
I wore my owl thermal today. I like that top.
FAVORITE TOP TALK.
IT IS ALWAYS SOMETHING with people.
always
oh my friends think you have bad bodyodor or oh wow I ate too much burrito today
oh thanks you called me fat
oh look my dog is out of kibble oh my mom is a moron oh that bird looks like an asshole oh btw you have stupid looking ears
oh that ceramic elephant is talking to me about the economy OH HEY I LIKE to eat chemicals oh yeah YOU smoke too much dirt weed oh yes I look like a maniac in public I am about to go mental all over this aisle of jellies and jams and nutella and fucking peanut butters and honey and other spreads!
I WILL. and bread is dumb today. I am sorry you cant take the honesty and reality of the world.
I helped out and sold some BOO grams at the school today and I wore the SPOOKIEST EARRING ever!
the kids were ALL BLOWN AWAY by my coolness.
they are my grammas.
one day they will be mine.

drink some juice.

go bold or go home

2009-10-21T15:44:00.000-07:00

I am so tired of this background this b-log has going on here.
enough already with that shit.
I will figure it out for us.
ONE THING AT A TIME.
most of the time.
YOu should have seen me at the dentist yesterday!
such bravery on my part.
really it was nothing.
I did have a cavity and that is VERY embarrassing
and I had to have some other problem dealt with
and my teeth polished.
SO ISNT THAT NICE FOR ME!!
I CAN CHEW ON BOTH SIDES OF MY MOUTH LIKE YOU DO!
YAY!
its a gorgeous day and I am thankful for the gloriousness that is TODAY and all the days of my life.
THANNK YOU!
and I like regular toothpaste.
normal toothpaste. no sparkly bs glitter toothpaste.
just the light blue toothpaste.
thats ALL I NEED.
and love.
i may post again real soon because I feel like and you like it.

BOO BERRY

2009-10-20T11:36:00.000-07:00

Today is an exciting day.
FOR ONE a trip to the dentist is happening later.
WICKED COOL.
other awesome stuff is gonna happen I JUST KNOW IT!
ALready received a package of paper and stickers on my doorstep this morning &
that was RAD.
SO its all happening for us.
all coming together.
what else was I gonna say? I know i was thinking how I could blog something or the other!
but thats the endless story of blogging now isnt it
at least for me it is.
BECAUSE I HAVE A THIS BRAIN OF MINE.
little kids are funny. one kid (not mine) told me how he has all these voices in his brain telling him what to do
and it turns out tooo complicated so he ends up in troube and YOU ALL KNOW THE STORY!
we can all relate to this 7 yr old kid.
heard it amillion times.
ANYWAYS I would like to say that I am super excited for HALLOWEEN and MY BIRTHDAY and I think thats it
for now.
hang in there and lets pray for each other.
iTS the OnLy Way!
and dont be mean to others unless they deserve it. i guess.

IMAGINE ALL THE PEOPLE TRYING TO SURVIVE

2009-10-09T13:39:00.000-07:00

GOSH ya know I really need to brush my hair today. I have yet to do SO.
I had to do this walk to school bus thing today and it was reallyway early in the morning.
like before the SUN early
so I was late and had to run to catch up.
When we all arrived to the school they had some quaker oatmeal bars and bananas cut in half.
I had half a banana.
I was really expecting muffins BUT I did NOT want a muffin so I was happy when I was bananas.
we ride our bike to school everyday anywasy UNLESS its raining or freezing out and
we leave at 7 thirty and arrive ten minutes later.
I did get the chance to introduce myself and complain to the principal about some issues I have about an ugly broken fence in the middle of the playground.
it is a fucking hazard.
I will not let up about it. I may take some photos.
you dont know it but you should know that I just now brushed my hair.
and its John Lennons birthday today! is it your birthday?
how should we celebrate?
more pie?
banana cream pie?
I like banana cream.
ANY PIE IS A PIE I LIKE.
I could never hate any pie.
NEVER COULD I!

amazing and smart

2009-10-02T15:11:00.000-07:00

wannna know something cool that I once did?
whipped up some coookies real quick like for fun!
total unplanned baking because I am a fun mom with nothing but FUN on the agenda.
anyways I just like cookies and my house likes to smell like them so its like ok WHY NOT?! AND WHATEVER! all AT ONCE.
OF COURSE already I have had way tooo many and I did not workout this morning CAUSE I had to grade papers like a good room mom.
Tomorrow I will RUN around the block a few times or something wild like that.
we all need to run more. my dogs need it for sure.
this is coolnews -
something is wrong with my pool pump!!!! lets celebrate! and party!
i can hear a hissing noise and a bubbling noise coming from the outside where the pool is located.
The windows are all open because it is a GORGEOUS day here in tHE A V. with a slight breeze.
havin the windows open is the best but I think maybe brings in the bad air.
I heard that on the news.
BUT HEY
THIS one thing I just looked at really annoyed me. i hate that.
The temptation to go into it in depth here on mY blog is there but I wont even bother fully but will say a few things about...
FIRST CLASS and fancy pants people
yes yes you are so tres' legitimate, pleasurable, accomplished and cool.
we are like so beneath you
you and your stack of phony baloney
barf.
the people who wear braces at inappropriate times in life.
like in times of ADULTHOOD.
if you can vote, DRINK, and/or SUCK A DICK you should not be seeing an orthodontist to have your hardware tightened.
I mean really?! are you serious? maybe if your grill is really messed up bad get invisaline or whatever the fuck.
or are you afraid to be a real live adult.

well now all the fucking papers are flying off the fridge!
and
i gotta go.

THE YOUNG AND THE RESTLESS WILL CONT....

2009-09-28T12:05:00.000-07:00

most everything is done around here with the exception of all my clothes being thrown about &
my closet and dresser drawers are practically empty.
i cant explain why and you dont reallly care.
ALSO poor me was unable to join the spin class this morning which was fine.
Truth be known,
I should have never even bothered trying cos I woke UP dreading it BUT still I pushed through with two cups of green tea and tried and was denied.
imagine that!
I suppose I could have stayed and attempted another form of exercise but WHY!? HWY VENE BTHOER!
can you tell that I am with inner turmoil?
i did take a long walk till my dogs literally STOPped moving.
literally. I had to use words of encouragement.
what else?
SNL was so freakin hilariouso i recorded it and watched scenes repeatedly.
I am sure that was unnecessary since NBC will just show that one show over and over again all season cause they like only make one new episode a season right? maybe two.
uhhh.
well, I guess I will do some at home ab exercises with the gigantic core ball
Then I will eat a Honeycrisp apple.
If Kathryn has 4 Honeycrisp apples and eats 1 how many will she have left to share with her friends?

"

2009-09-21T11:19:00.000-07:00

i am so sick and tired of signing in.
its just enough already
and for this.
hey did you notice the missing quotation? i did.
silly mistake.
so anyways I did not mean to start off that way.
I changed birth control pills and its been a fucking disaster for me.
not really. I am giving out personal info and
always going against better judgement
BUT really my first instinct is honesty so thats why it flows so freely and naturally out of me. is that selfish? is honesty selfishness? no I dont think so.
so these pills made me totally skip a period and made me FLIP UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE out over it
and I missed a party to BOOT!
And i don't mean to blame my actions and reactions on hormones and chemical balances but what the hell.
might as well.
made jello shots for the party i did not attend, felt like a lunatic
and MAYBE just MAYBE thats the time when its best to stay home.
so turns i am a good decision maker. maybe the forces were forcing me to stay home. could be true.
You dont really know anything about how the forces work. do you?
BUT YEAH I know that when you change your outfit and wash your face 7 plus times its done.
down for the count over.
@ 11 pm when you are resting on your kitchen floor in spandex leggings w a jello shot platter beside you,
tired from alll the self destruction and self loathing
you could say the party was over before it ever started.
i never really had a spandex anything on, but it was coming to that.
and finally in the end it all added up to nothing.
and I had a cold.

YOU ARE GONNA LOVE THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE

2009-09-16T22:34:00.000-07:00

i was very nervous and almost wimped out but i remembered that I am no wimp.
a casing flew down my top and into my bra and burnt some areola. ouch! and really?
so that was today.
nextime i will dress more appropriate. no low cut tops allowed.
did you know that?
I had no idea.
also BOOm!! it goes right through your body! BOOm! explodes in your face!
alright alright
relax.

i do plan on maybe practicing more.
it was intense and pretty inexpensive fun,

tomorrow is september 17tH! wow!

what are you doing?

2009-09-15T17:33:00.000-07:00

that was an oddballish birthday celebration lunch day for CECE
the terrible fire was happening so the skies were filled with doom and gloom
and much to our surprise fireman were scattered all over the joint
eatIn and chiilllin w potato skins and brew
some in uniform and some not.
I was a lil emotional over it.
but I kid cause I am not exactly sure what they ordered.
my camera was acting wrong.
that was weeks ago
and i think the fire is under control. I am no longer hacking up ashes.
Another odd thing happened
I had thefish tacos pretending to be "lowfat"
but like I said that was weeks ago and tonight I am gonna make pudding. TRADER JOES has all SORTS of AMAZONG new MERCH! I was like THIS IS THE BANANAS! i should really show you and maybe trader joes would be interested n hiring me to be their PUBLICIST!
my toes are so rad right now.
you can rest assured you have never seen toes as bodacious as mine.
silver glitter and stripes! and more! on my toes.
I don't wanna worry anyone or anything but tomorrow i am gonna shoot a GUN!
practice you know.
for the day I need it.
but no no i would never need it but its still gonna be very cool and I MIGHT take some video and upload that for fun and stuuff.
like anyone cares.
I will try to be more for you another time.

here i am in your moms backyard

2009-09-10T13:33:00.000-07:00

made a few MAHOR purchases today. a big new crock pot and a FRYER that does all sorts of amazing things with food.
WAL MART was filled with douche bags with price machines. they were so douchy but they have a good gig.
i ate some taco meat last night in my sleep. I SWEAR I am sleeping. its fucking absurd! I know.
I will stop. I will get help.
Yesterday I wasted a bunch of time on google maps
I pretend like I am a spy from another place and time.
because thats who I truly am.
it doesnt matter I am just trying to help you fill that empty space in your time.
thats all I am.
I am a helper.
and a planner. I need to go reserve my bike for tomorrow cycling class. its 1 dollar to do so.
fucking gay huh but if I am the least BIT late I will be so screwed and out of a bike. BUT really its no big whoop cause I dont get all crazy over little shit like thats. YOU know me.
but really I need to go pay one dollar.
they should just respect me and let me have one for free OR better yet make sure there are enough bikes for everyone REGARDLESS!
but thats not how my gym here likes to practice business.
i am not that serious about this.
one "FRIEND" of mine wrote a mean and nasty letter saying how BAD the gm sucks and signed MY name, isnt that something else!? or what?
once again, I don't really care and I probably totally agree with her. but what good did it do? no good really at all.
now the gym probably just makes fun of me and talks about me behind my back because I am paid upfront now for 3 yrs.
I would like to talk about this and other things further but I really gotta hit the pavement.

so far... for the most.

2009-09-08T11:52:00.000-07:00

real fast I am gonna see how fast I can do this cos I have a TON of shit to do and I do MEAN a TON its just like never ending and I CANT STAND IT but I am joking cos I obviously CAN stand ANYTHING thrown infront of me.
but what I was gonna say is how I have a massive amount of unfolded and unsorted clothes about the size of your EGO my side of the bed and tis aboutfucking time I fucking handle it before it handles ME and I lose my fucking cool and trash it all like a BAD relationship. only to regret it later.
just like my green skirt. gone with the wind because stupid me thought I did not need it but I did. I really did.
I cant even start down the thinking about it path right now.
Why do that with my energy and have it spiral into a long list of WHYs and goodbyes?
LIKE WHY DID I EVzer move away? WHY did I get rid of all THE other AWESOME shit? insanitttty.
CLEAN it UP and look carefully before you throw it out!
so moving on
I had to FORCE feed myself some oatmeal this morning and WE all woke up late because none of US like SCHOOL or WORK we just wanna beat on the drum all day and smoke tons of it and eat junk all DAY everyDAY cause that is the life of a rock star and we are rock stars and you know our name from the neighborhood and if yo dont you must not know your own name.
OK well.
also I was gonna say that the above photo is dumb and I am like zoned out on PURPOSE
evrything happening is for a purpose
I took it infront of the next town overs best kept secret pizza place and it was a few Friday nights ago and since then I have colored and cut my hair. and I have become even BETTER looking.
have a Tuesday.

give me a whisper give me a sigh

2009-08-31T09:51:00.000-07:00

zero clue where to begin. everything I want to say sounds dumb and too DRAMATIC.
I had a realllly bad night so I woke up late and felt rushed and flustered so things got out of hand and then I missed the gym and now I am sitting here in my gym outfit like a fucking lose r and what will I do with myself NOW?!
I would threaten SUICIDE but lately when I offer that as a solution to the problem the people tend to agree and start helping with the plan. so fuck that.
it is sick really, my life.
whats really disturbing is the enormous fire blazing in the backyards of friends of friends.
I prefer NOT to cry but sometimes its a must, and thats just nature.
I will go.
no? you want me stay?
ok I will.
today is already strange enough.
I do believe in a heaven above me. maybe there we can all be happy andmaybe even shit butterflies.
and I have never lied. I always tell the truth and I am honest.
Pretty much I tell the truth and I am the most straight UP person YOU know.
I say it I do it and I do not fuck around.
TODAY is my very good friends birthday and yet I feel kinda tragic and GAY but thats what makes being around me so FUN and distracting.
and yeah.
this post is a real downer so I will post again real soon with something less faggy.
i dont want any one to dislike me

you have really made it.

2009-08-26T00:58:00.000-07:00

ok joan rivers is my least favorite person in the world. really.
my mom went to her late show once in LA and I remember staying up to see it and was totally let down and went to bed.
when was that? 85? 86?
now i think she still sucks and her new shitt show!
scary how everything stays exactly the same.
I am exactly the same person I was when I was 5 or 16.
right now
I am just waiting for 3's co. to come on.
one big new thing in my life that i can share is that I switched my birth control to another birth control and I am hoping to be rewarded with positive side effects.
tomorrow I have some goals I want to accomplish.
some goals come naturallly but some are always challenging.
I have an area downstairs that needs to be organized and set up with SNACKS and WHAT HAVE YOU.
something I have been meaning to do for OH 5 yEARS!
so really whats another day or another trip up and down these wonderful stairs of mine?
but no.
and just to let you know if I was to MEET JOAN RIVERS I would probably end up liking her and be a good friend to her.
maybe
never can tell.

duck and cover

2009-08-14T13:20:00.000-07:00

these photo of me and sara are pretty cute.
I slammed her face into the ground that night with my smoothies.
she said they made her do poopy all day the next day. haha youre welcome.
TODAY I have all this stuff to do today and people to pick up and drop off its insane.
YES YES YOU do it too
I KNOW WE ALL DO THINGS AND HAVE STUFF TO DO
I am not the only one with life responsibilities. and some kids have more.
I did not even turn on any music today because I just dont have the time.
so now its easy to hear my dogs licking themselves like cats and some fly flying around
OH and I have an ant problem.
ALL BECAUSE the other day I said to some person that I have NO ANT troubles so the universe heard me say this and did something to fix that error because BY GOD! WE ALL NEED ANTS RUMMAGING THROUGH OUR HOMES!
invading our privacy.
mostly they are hanging out by the dog food and trash. which may be seen in the above photo.
or maybe I cropped it out.? I DONT REMEMBERwhat photo is being shown but yeah I am pretty sure its visible.
so maybean earthquake is gonna happen? like the ants KNOW things we don't because ANTS are actually smart.
you saw the moves.

I must brush my teeth and leave

2009-08-13T13:23:00.000-07:00

hi sorry you kathryn addicts for lack of
anyways I have been eating candy and now I think I have to poop.
milled flax seed and chocolate does wonders.
its the truth.
I about to go on a mini bike ride. i dont think its that hot out today and thats a nice thing.
1005 is way to hot and thats how hot it gets in this VALLLEY.
I am a valley girl.
like for sure and junk.
i always leave my house too early so NOW I am trying to not rush around but I have this URGE to get up and rush around. the anxiety over being LATE! and more.
ah!
i am still cleaning up from all the PARTIES I have been THROWING
LIKE right now i see a wad of blue napkin on a shelf.
and thats really dumb.
why place a napkin there? who did that?
I know it was not YOU because you cant come here and do that in my upstairs living area because I would knock you out!
ok. I cant wait any longer I really mUST GO!
i wll TRY to come back again soon and do another little short fun story but most of the time I don't feel like.

FREE GIFT

2009-07-29T02:05:00.000-07:00

as of late I have been staying up till threeish am because of a few things.
one combined reason is i love threes company and I also love the company of my farm animals on my pretend farm I manage on facebook.
its fun.

went on a trip down the freeway that ended up in redondo beach and eventually back home again
at 1st I was acting like a little girl and was scared of the waves
cause we all have a history with the ocean.
but all I kept hearing was warm water this and nice warm water that
so I bucked up and went in and swam around
I can still feel the rhythm now.
afterwards we all ventured off to delicious mexican food on a tiny patio at
el gringo
I ordered the blackened mahi mahi burrito and finished it about an hour ago in my kitchen. very yummy.
I eat too late everynight.
i just cant help but be a midnight snacker.
but yeah so the beach was fun and the waves and the sand and all that soothed my soul.
i should have taken more photos.
but everything is flying by so quickly I can barely pay attn as IT IS.
i never know if I should post the same pictures here that I post on the famous FACEBOOK.
that place has really taken away from my time here.
how much more ridiculous will my life become?

hammer time!

2009-07-20T00:05:00.000-07:00

well golly G!
Sure hope your weekend was everything you dreamed it could be and then some.
maybe you had a wedding or a special party to attend or a new baby jesus was born into your holy family.
any 1 of those things would be magical.
In my weekend dreamland I learned valuable lessons
one being that if I want a midori mixed drink I better BUY the 18 dollar bottle of Midori and not the fake cheap 8 dollar bottle of "melon" flavored liquor.
thats a life lesson I will hold on to.
Thank you universe for revealing the truth.

Puff puff, give. Puff puff, give.

2009-07-17T10:53:00.000-07:00

rest assured
?
I will be taking more photos of myself in the fridge, cause I like that and I am gonna be all about that.
!
hahaha but for cereals
i am lucky to have recieved a good new mix of new songs for the ipod and I appreciate that.
I have been following no strict diet lately and not drinking much water.
mostly party party everyday and today its more of the same with a little different.
I think I will end up outside with some blended midori.
I NEED SOME LARGE PLASTIC CUPS.
Its friday so we need to live it up and maybe buy a dress.....
cause it's Friday; you ain't got no job... and you ain't got shit to do....
lets watch FRIDAY! I LOVE THAT MOVIE. top 5 favorite movie.
anyone own that movie?
whatever internet.

THIS IS A PLANT I WOULD LIKE TO BE

2009-07-14T09:30:00.000-07:00

first of all my eyes are realllly dry and itchy and I would like to ask GOD to please take all the peoples pain away.
the oatmeal these days just is nOT hitting the spot.
is it the splenda? should I go back to straight brown sugar?
I should not be here now,
because I was gonna be out and about and over there and I overslept.
I reallly REALLY wanted to get up at like 630 and clean up and chill out with some breakfast and coffee
BUT NO I got up at 830 and so now my day is not where it should be.
so much for that INNER clock of mine. maybe it knows best? maybe I am safe where I am at.
What I need to do is go to bed early and stop watching shitty movies. I hate movies that waste my time.
I dont know, MAYBE I AM CRABBY.
i will be fine
and so will YOU.
sorry if I upset you

STOP the madness cause its not that funny

2009-07-06T08:32:00.000-07:00

those were the fun jell-o shots I made for the 4th.
they did not last long and they got the job done. did.
Viewed that teen pregnancy movie JUNO last night for the first and I enjoyed it.
And this morning around 1 am I lost my damn mind while standing in my kitchen
I ate peanut butter with a side of a large brick of chocolate
then finished up w a glass of milk!
WHAT KIND OF NONFUCKINGSENSE is THAT?
that is wrong wrong wrong of me.
AND I have been eating tons of BREAD! like some sort of bread loving JUNKY WHORE!

so now I am leaving for the gym.

oh pleease you and your 4th of july

2009-07-04T07:42:00.000-07:00

I have so many more pictures and so many explanations and excuses that its overwhelming
so so so many, SO MAANNNNY
I am reminded that we really need to get to a dodger game. ASAP.
and I will take MORE PICTURES.
thinking about it causes me to feel anxiety.
so why travel down that path? why bother?
i like to rely on my inner clock. very trustworthy.
bugs have been biting me and I swear one bit me on my face.
i wish it would have bit my face OFF.
not really.
i have not been to the GYM for awhile due to all the FUN being had and the having of the fun and that needs to stop.
cause like right now I cant sit here cause like you know
I gotta go have more fun.

fun and challenging

2009-06-18T22:33:00.000-07:00

some people want me to blog about my days.
The other day me and the crew went on a FABULOUS HIKE in the HOLLYWOOD HILLS!
Were you there too?
Cause its possible YOU are as cool and hardcore as that.
maybe not.
Hiking is fun and I plan on doing it always and forever or until I hurt myself which ever comes first.
I also had pink berry yogurt the other day for the 1st time EVER and it was like yeah ok whatever bitter yogurt with berries,
but still I should not complain cause it was very enjoyable. i got the plain with green tea. It was refreshing.
We all love non fat yogurt.
what will this weekend be like?
my lights have been dimming and flickering.
hope its just the spirits saying hi and not some bigger problem.
you take care of you and try not to forget about me.

thats what you do

2009-06-11T10:36:00.000-07:00

a lot of times when I get back home from the gym I feel like my day is over
but no its not
not even eleven and I still need a shower

I looked online

2009-06-10T23:43:00.000-07:00

I imagine those cherries are gone or really really over ripe.
who knows what happened to them.
just some fruit.
I would really like a fruit tree.
I never even blog anymore.
Everything feels so lonely in here.
and fuck this wind, hahahaha.
but really this weather is making me lose my cool.
Yesterday was cool
Raspberries were onsale
I wonder if they will still be tomorrow.
berries ROCK my world.
I have not been in the moood for watermelon since it feels like I should be baking a pumpkin pie.
DO you really wanna know how I Feel?
I FEEL as IF SUMMER is already OVER and done.
? is that true?
did I travel through some sort of black hole of time and land in a dif season and dimension.
cause i could swear it was just may and I already had my base tan in the works.
now I am wearing a sweater.
so does this mean that i really DONT in fact need a lounge chair and a table with a nice umbrella.
well good good good!
BECAUSE those things seem to be unattainable.
and what happened to those cheap rubbery plastic lounge chairs in my grammas backyard?
where can I find some of those?
RITE AIDE? WALGREENS? OSCO?
forget it. forget this blog TOTALLY.

fresh out bum out

2009-06-07T11:43:00.000-07:00

hi
I hope you didnt miss me too hard.
or maybe you just forgot alll about me.
this picture is old and i have new but yeah this is what you get so be happy you get it.
i have moved back into my house and its awesome and everything I could EVER WANT but still i want more and I plan on gettingit.
YOU KNOW me.
the weather has not been kind around these parts so I have yet to swim and tan it up
and we all could really use a beach trip like yesterday.
I returned to church this morning and I was well received.
and a little nerdy girl is pregnant. I SCREAMED SHE IS PREGNANT!
she has a fetus living in her belly and its really sad cause she is like 10.
maybe she is 16. maybe 17.
either fucking way she is waaay too young to have a human inside her. gross.
grow up 1st.
I say wait till you are in your 30's.
and even then, THINK HARD.
I am going to go buy some stuff that I need and WANT at the stores.
like HAM and CHEESE and BREAD and a WASHER AND DRYER.

I am afraid to fast forward.

2009-05-18T23:24:00.000-07:00

i know that my pics are sim but there are smalls difs and that matters. whatever why am I saying this?
every safewAY/VONS/pavillion or whatever the fuck is the same.
once I was trippin out on some acid and I figured that out.
BUT tivo and DVR are two very different things.
TV really bothers me all together. can cause some real unnecessary problems.
the internet too for THAT MATTER.
so i was like I will miss this liquor aisle
but there are the same liquor aisles EVERYWHERE.
I dont even drink.
I always think about the calories and figure I would rather get high and eat some chocolate.
BUT listen up I want to see public enemies, so bad. DEPP AND BALE! are you fucking kidding me/.1!!
and whats the PEPSI MAX?
diet cola for men? Puh LEEZ!
my apartment and a flaming marshmallow.
speaking of slim shady...?
have you seen him lately?
WTFingH?
and my potato pancakes that were not lying.
they are what they say they are.

hear them with my eyes

2009-05-13T21:29:00.000-07:00

SO I found the best cotton summer skirts @ TARGET yesterday.
ONLY $9!
thanks goodness they only had 1 in my size or I would have bought one in every color they had.
and thank goodness it is bright blue.
target is so fun.
they have really cool retro shades too.
We gotta protect those pretty peepers.
what else?
I have been making SMORES lately.
Its all been good and very well BUT
I dont understand why SCOOBY DOO is NEVER On!
In times past it was on every second of every fucking day.
How does something go from that to gone?
Its not an easy thing for me to understand.
HOw hard is it to properly rotate all the cartoons that exist in this universe?
I cant imagine it being that terribly MIND bending difficult.
any one idiot can create a play list.
ITS FUN.
so thats my problem with you right now.
the lack of cartoon variety in my life.
whom do I tell?

its a little stupid.

2009-05-10T22:49:00.000-07:00

i am freexing cold right now so my overheated computer feels good on my lap.
why is it so hot? that reallyy ccant be good can it?
its actually starting to burn now.
its been the best mothers day yet.
i had
an omelette
a chocolate fruit kabob
a turkey burger w a delicious salad and some chocolate/vanilla non fat yogurt w peanut butter sauce AND marshmellow sauce and and and and all this other nice stuff.
i have a lot more pictures but my flcker account is always telling me its full and no more pictures are allowed but I just keep loading and loading and not listening and its the craziest thing
LUCKILY ITS A LIAR
trying to get all bossy ir somethingy whatev.
but really maybe some pictures are being erased?
I dont care its not that important.
Been wanting to watch 8 mile for the past few MONTHS and I am sure it wont ever happen unless I put it on a list.
i have a list.
a few lists.
i dont know about this one really. BUt there YA GO!
my feet got realllly dirty today.

I can smell the coffee

2009-05-06T19:23:00.000-07:00

Did you know that it is teacher appreciation week? well it is
so Drew and I made some chocolate chip cookies for his teacher.
They are very delicious and I hope she likes them and maybe she could share them with the kids.
I have had 5. maybe 6.
forget about the cookies.
The packing is going on
I think maybe I have packed 4 or 5 boxes and that feels like something.
should be a smooth move.
sorry i have no new news or anything cool to say.
once the sun stays hot around here I will try to get a tan and LEAVE YOU ALONE TOTALLY.
does spf 15 do ANYTHING at all?
I really wish it did.
A lot of girls get spray tanned and it last like 5-7 days then you go again.
I can only afford the sun.
by a very little.

the old razzledazzle

2009-05-02T16:46:00.000-07:00

someone should get me some laker tickets or something.
I would need four.
OR MORE!
so I have been doing a few things today and none of them are very important things besides feeding the things that need to be fed.
I have been eating a lot of watermelon and drinking a lot of green tea and watching a lot of the disney channel.
this maybe be the best vacation of my life but it ends in 20 days. then it will be time for another type of vacation.
I am a vacation.
Jamaica would be cool though.
San Diego is nice too. maybe next time I up an move away I will move to San Diego.
ok thats good enough.

wax on wax off

2009-04-26T10:14:00.000-07:00

THe sun is not shining as bright as I would like for today but its still early.
THe plan for the day is a bike ride to see the baby ducks and turtles and other nice stuff.
I was lucky enough to have some new cereal this morning.
I could have had 3 bowls.
when I get back home I am going to kick box every chance I get.
there is no kick boxing at the gym here. I wonder why.

a lil sweet and a lot spicy

2009-04-25T21:56:00.000-07:00

maybe coco needs to lose a few pounds.
and maybe her name should be cocoa.
I talked about it with her and we agreed that its both.
so actually yeah its either way. what a great day today has been. I love life and I love you almost as much as i love LA
i bought some new splenda coffee flavor packet thingys and even though I feel it involves more packaging than I wish to be a part of I do love the sweetness it adds to my cofffee without the calories.
also I love chili sauce and I put that stuff on everything. EVEN BANANAS!
should I be scared?
I might even start carrying the bottle in my purse. is that ghetto of me?
before you say no
I also bought a box of wine at walmart today.
wine sales are up and I wanna give the box a try.
whatelse?
oh I lost my camera case today but I found it on the bookshelf.
wonderful day.
I am watching NARNIA.

oh yeah and no

2009-04-24T13:56:00.000-07:00

thats some hebrew pastary filled with cheeeese! my friend made it for me.
yummmy and of course very fattening.
I told ya so.
not bad lighting in this apartment. I could make a promise that this is the last hallway or kitchen picture of me that I will show you but I won't.
so I have been sitting here off and on a few times and
I remembered something!
At that job thing that I no longer have I used to lotion up my hands every 5-10 minutes
but now that I have no job I dont seem to do that so you can do the math,
and still I have not dropped off the store key.
what is it? cant bring myself downtown?
have I even been downtown at all this week?
what have I been doing? what am I doing?
what am I getting ready for?
BEACH TIME!? yes. and poolside time.
fuck I dont have that nice spa anymore.
well thats annoying.
how will I listen to music now?
I need some sort of out door stereo system,
thanks for reminding me.
I will work it out.
why do I even come here?
we should all ask ourselves that very question.

FUNK SOUL RIGHT ABOUT NOW

2009-04-23T10:30:00.000-07:00

I am falling in that rut.
that sad place.
must mean I need to start blogging more.
i am moving back home soon and its just weird, and I am sorry for LOOKING so DEEP INTO LIFE AND MY MANY THOUGHTS and MY MANY FEEEELINGS.
feelings do nothing but cause people to do stupid things.
but maybe thats just me? cant be.
I did the boring yoga class this morning and decided that I will change my thursday schedule starting next Thursday.
soon I wont be inside that gym ever again.
or will I?
my kitchen is a mess from last night and I really need to get up and dance and do this.
I have been playing with and taking care of my new camera so maybe more annoying photos to come.
its kinda overcast here today.
I hope I can brighten something or someone today.
CALL ME.

look at those colors

2009-04-22T21:29:00.000-07:00

really need some cottOn balls and I really need to drop off a key.
my nails look scary and its not a time for scary
its a time for calm and cotton balls will help.
I am trying to feel as if I am on a big retreat.
like this apartment I am in is a xtra large hotel suite.
unfortunately some men have been rebuilding the stairs
it has been an inconvenience to say the LEAST.
sparks flying around outside my front door.
really!?
its been a mess.
but I remain friendly to the universe and try my VERY BEST TO GO WTH THE FUCKING FLOW!
and just let it be.
i have tv to watch.
HAPPY EARTH DAY!
poor planet earth.

You're traveling through another dimension

2009-04-21T23:23:00.000-07:00

graceful and talented me broke two wine glasses tonight. AT ONCE.
glass crashed everywhere and all over the place.
in the kitchen
I had on my flip flops so I was safe
BUT it did break right in my face and a piece of sharp glass almost punctured and cut my eye!
but didnt.
but I did get some hot pepper in my eye.
I have enough wine glasses to open up a bar or a vineyard or something.
I could use a new bathing suit.

don't hate me just yet

2009-04-19T21:36:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT I GOT!?? yep.
a camera.
and boy oh fucking boy it was quiet the ordeal.
of course right. I am me.
I bought 2 before finally landing on the 3rd.
ONE uncool TEAL ONE THAT was WEAK
so I returned it 20 min after i paid for it and bought a snazzy black one and when I got home with it stupid me realized that FUCKIT WAS NOT WATERPROOF and I NEED NEED NEED WATERPROOF COS I like like to take my cameras in large bodies of water like the ocean and stuff and sometimes sprinklers.
so NO that WOULD NOT DO so I returned it later in the evening and now I am all set with this orange one that I hope to be buried with. bury me with it.
sorry.
SORRY!
Sorry.
Basically its the same one i had last weekish but a lil newer and cooler.
SOrry again.
so there we have it. NOW this blog and my life can continue.
i wonder where my camera went.
who has it?
have they deleted my pictures?
did they like them?
did they think my friends and I were pretty and cool?
and just so you know I do NOT like waterproof mascara, that stuff is WHACK.

WE LOST THE WORLD WHEN THAT STORM HIT US

2009-04-16T10:52:00.000-07:00

some photos from the night i lost my camera.
such a sad sad thing for me to deal with.
a terrible loss.
I will NEVER get over it.
COCO IS EVEN SAD ABOUT IT! SHE IS CRYING OVER IT RIGHT NOW!
i dont know what else to say but fuck.

OH yeah here is a cooool story:
last night a BIKE COP dished out some bullshit to me and SARA
a lecture in place of a FINE for riding around at night without lights on
SARA told the cop she was going to CRAP HER PANTS if he gave us a ticket. hahaha
and I told the officer I was a BROKE STUDENT so he let us go with a warning.
he also thought we were sexy so that helped.
now we need to eat something BESIDES KEttle CORN.
a nice big salad with AVOCAAADOOo and ZUUUCHHHINI maybe some tooooMAAAATOOOO.
maybe some garlic fries.
I believe in vampires.

with a twist and a jab

2009-04-15T11:06:00.000-07:00

well well well
I am cameraless. LOST IT. SOMEWHERE.
me and my crew went to a hollywood birthday surprise PARTY at this fabulous place on Sunset called the
FALCON
took the most amazing photos EVER!
cant show you cause I am RECKLESS and CARELESS and drop shit.
I dont want to talk about it anymore.
maybe it will turn up or maybe I will get a new one from my fairy godmother.
UNTIL then I will just post OLD photos.
OR not blog at all.
I really need to take off this nail polish.
IS IT JUNE YET!?!?!??!!??!!??!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
or may?
May at least.

what did you think I would say at this moment?

2009-04-02T22:01:00.000-07:00

HAAaaYy! WHATS UP?
so i took a test on Facebook that confirms YES I am in fact a sociopath.
those tests really expose the inner me.
mind blowing!

Today was my last day of employment so now I am an unemployed person.
like you.
opened the store door for the last time, turned on the lights and the music for the last time, counted the register for the last time, pulled out the clearance table for the last time, swept the sidewalk for the last time, took pictures of myself in the bathroom for the last time and other last time things.
sad really.
so many beginnings and endings going on all around.
I am thinking about applying for unemployment?? can I? does that still exist?
the next job I plan on acquiring will be at a GYM! sounds fucking perfecto!
so thats what I am gonna do. I will be like a trainer or something.
after that I dont know where I will be. Hollywood?
I do love jewelry and I love selling it but its just not the best time for that type of business.
ANYHOW
I grilled some steak this evening and steamed some broccoli.
tomorrow I will bake semi- sweet chocolate chip cookies.
right now I am gonna go download some LADY GAGA.
YOU HEARD ME!

the sun the moon the stars

2009-03-29T22:09:00.000-07:00

I watched Moulin Rouge! this morning at 1. such a sad and wonderful movie with a great cast.
makes me recall a conversation I had with my father once
we were talking about how he just saw the movie in the theatre with his girlfriend and he said he wished he had been a little more baked.
haha RIGHT ON.
i lost the lid for the milk the other day then last night i lost the cork. whats the meaning of that?
my feet are freezing right now. WHATS THE MEANING OF ALL THIS?
works been great. tomorrow night we are all going out for sushi so we can say GOODBYE AND GOOD LUCK. but I still have like 4 more days of work. bitter sweet.
the dude wont be attending cause his girlfriend is mental.
why are girls so insane and nuts all the time?
chill out bitches.
I need to take my own advise.
I need to stop eating for entertainment but why bother?
the Easter bunny is coming to town and so am I.
here I come church.

ON the GO!

2009-03-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

hi you... I have been working out and eating healthy cause thats what i do.
its MY thing.
it could be yours but you'd rather poison yourself and sit on your ass reading books about the Germans and being boring.
I cut out high fructose. and stuff.
its almost vacation time.
do you like that pillow? I do. 50% off and its stiillll way out of your price range. RIght now I forget how much it is.
maybe 94? I wanna say 94.
but hey 50% off kids! SO stop in and pick it up.
either way I cant have it. POOPY BUTTONS.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm THAI FOOD SOMETHING SOMETHING SCALLOP DISH.
those 3 balls are part of the 300 little stupid chocolate dried cherry candy ball family that I DESTROYED and by DESTROYED I mean ENJOYED. Thanks MIKI!
lets be friends forever.
this here is a dopeass BIODEGRADABLE PURSE THAT IS AWESOME AND I WANT IT but guess what! YUP.
its way too expensive. surprise surprise.

complaint bank

2009-03-19T21:59:00.000-07:00

whats with fast food places selling "snacks" these days? mini burgers and fried chicken wraps or whatever.
eat an apple or better yet a banana YOU STUPID FAT ASS.
but do what you want. spend your cash how you want.
I am not your life coach.
my boss says she has this HUGEish scorpion picture thing for me. sounds interesting.
I guess there is some story about it and how she was gonna burn it but decided not to.
i will CHECK it outs tomorrow.
THATS MY NEW WALLET! LOVE IT.
funny story
i could not get my money card out of it the other day at the checkout counter in the grocery store so I MADE A SCENE by requesting tweezers and/or assistance.
it was too tight because of the newness
and the young clerk man tried to help me but did not succeed
he just made me worried that he was gonna fuck it all up.
ten minutes later I finally pulled the card out.
i was buying flax seed, lucky charms and tortillas.
in my world grocery stores are fun and full of excitement
surprises on every aisle.
i try to grocery shop at least once a day.
i once worked in a grocery store.

POUR SOME HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP ON ME

2009-03-17T16:37:00.000-07:00

oh my effing jesus! ugh! GIVE ME A BREAK! MAN ALIVE!! everyone is an idiot with idiot ideas.
its embarrassing.
just kidding.
I popped some popcorn IN THE MICROWAVE. microwaves are awesome.
ate a handful of it
I'm saving the rest for LATER because self control is my middle name!
HA! RIGHT!
popcorn is good.
played a lil WII fit and according to it I have lost 7 plus pounds since last time we played with each other. partYtIME!
thats sweet! but I don't really believe in that.
but i do. but i dont. maybe i do.
oh yea happy st patty day.
go swallow up some corned beef AND CABBAGE!